:)

"whenever you lost someone and found someone new, dont think he/she filled the emptiness the former created. your heart just grew to make more space for the newcomer. but when you reach your elastic limit, your heart just keep clearing up the filled space till you find your life EMPTY and COLD"

--- ria

the reality.. :)

i've just been bored to death so i tried searching for my past blogs .. to get an idea ..

then i came across this one blog about my dreams and fears

it was dated october ..

while i was reading it, i felt guilt and emptiness
because ...

that blog used to emanate with love
and when i read it before, i have that painful doubt inside my heart
like it would come true
but dreams are the opposite of reality

i dont think i love him any more .. :((
i think it faded away already
or was it lesser love i felt now??
wen he touches me, hugs me, looks at me ..
i no longer melt ..
i no longer feel the tingly feeling running the length of my spine
i no longer feel the same way ..

despairingly true :((
i hope he dont see this :((

i hope i find my heart again :(



--ria