a new facade x]]

.D.E.A.T.H.

such a famous word

embraced by some,
feared by others
evading it will lead you to nothing
we were all destined to die wen we were born

a fool will try to find ways to bring life back to the dead
but stupidity is wen you try to think of ways to be immortal

the elixir of life
a very precious "treasure" to all the fools who believed they will find immortality

the fountain of youth
which led to many voyages which came home
empty
stupid people who try in vain to find eternal life
they end up with nothing

wordly people have attached their soul to the physical world
they are afraid to lose the things dey worked so hard to gain
things they spent years to lay their hands on
things which will eventually fade and vanish

people who dont gain anything long for death
people who think they will be luckier in the afterlife wish to die soon
to have a bit more comfort
to find a place where they will belong

death is more universal dan life
everyone dies but not everyone is given a chance to live

death is not the last sleep,
its the final awakening

one death is tragedy
a million deaths is statistic

some people are so afraid to die they never begin to live

death is unavoidable,
it's our final destination
our destiny
everyone will die,
it's only a matter of time

dey say death is the sweetest escape
i say death is not an escape

people think of death as the only way to escape worldly pain
dey just dont know,
death is the indication of your duty's fulfillment ..
when you die,
GOD had finished with his plan for you
that's why you can now be with him in eternity


RiA :))

happy.not.=)

cant do much about anything ..

stupidity striked

crziness and vulnerability hit me hard

i fell in a supersonic crash

and it hurt a lot

but still,

cant do much about it, can't i ?



and though i'm in pain

though i suffer silently

though these tears fall uncontrollably

i cant seem to want to give up



i was just waaaay too inlove

and i admit ..

i cant pull away

but we both have to

he said so himself



i'm far from sad

i'm much much much more worse than that

but wat else can i do?

how else should i feel ?

i tried to be that girl whom he would love

i tried to please everybody,

leaving behind wat i myself would want to become

and i end up with nothing



nothing but the pain and heartache




but i'm not quitting

no, i'm stronger now ..

i have him as my shield

as my strength ..

i'm not backing off ..

just lying low




and now, i end this blog ..




RiA :)

if.we.hold.on.together x]]

dont lose your way ; with each passing day ; u've come so far ; don't throw it away .. live believing; dreams are for weaving ; wonders are waiting to start ; live your story ; faith, hope, and glory ; hold to the truth in your heart ; if we hold on together ; i know our dreams will never die ; dreams se us through to forever ; were clouds roll by ; for you and i ; souls in the wind; must learn how to bend ; seek out the stars ; hold on to the end ; valley, mountain ; there is a fountain ; washes our tears all the way ; words are swaying ; someone is praying ; please let us come home to stay ; if we hold on together ; i know our dreams will never die ; dreams see us through to forever ; where clouds roll by ; for you and i ; when we are out there in the dark ; we'll dream about the sun ; in the dark we'd see the light ; warm our hearts ; everyone ; if we hold on together ; i know our dreams; will never die ; dreams see us through to forever ; as high ; as souls can fly ; where clouds roll by ; for you and i ..

---

i remeber this as the first song i ever memorized in my entire life ..

and i meant really memorized

this is included in the sountrack of the "movie series"

The Land Before Time

this song was sung by Diana Ross

i really love this song

and shockingly,

this was also the first song "he" memorized in his life x]]

"lucky shot" i guess x]]

har.har.

niweisz ..

"i'm just a girl,

who once belived her own fairy tale

who believed in the phrase

~happily ever after~

once in her life .."

will i really get my happily ever after ?

will he be finally my "prince charming" ??

will my life really be like a fairy tale ?

or will this chapter of my life end

with no "happily ever afters"

no happy endings ?

~RiA~

192219

iLabbyUh !

.happy.sad.happy.sad.=]

what a week !

such a mood swing :]]

it was quite [?] good ..

but i especially liked dis day .. x]]

so this was quite a busy [?]

week ..

well almost ..

but not quite x]]

n0, actually,

we have no classes

mostly bcoz of the

preparation for the sci-fa and

my DNA works

but it was still quite busy ..

a lot of things to prepare ..

and somehow, one of my best days was wednesday ..

[september 17, 2008]

i wanted time to stop

as i spent that moment with him ..

but as soon as that moment started to feel great,

time snatched it away ..

and sadly.. that night we fought [?]

bcoz of my stupidity ..

i was soo selfish

i didn't think of his sacrifices just so he wouldn't hurt me ..

and i cried till 1am that night ..

i cried till i fell asleep ..

and my nightmares were still about him ..

the next day ..

[september 18, 2008]

i didn't approach him ..

nor looked at him

but i did, once or twice ..

to say sorry and to ask if he's angry with me ..

i spent that day, screaming my heart out with songs

songs that i sang

along with my beloved classmates

i spent my day in a facade

pretending i'm happy ..

though i'm breaking inside ..

i cried silently thrice at school ..

but nobody saw nor noticed except diana ..

i slept that night thinking things over ..

and i decided,

i wouldn't go away ..

:]

i cant leave my beloved franklin family behind

n0t just bcoz of my stupidity x]]

so i slept early ..

9:45pm to be axact ..

and that was one of the most comfortable sleep i've had ..

the next day, today

friday, september 19,2008

b0o and hershey, happy mnthsary !! :]]

we had the celeb. of the sci. month ..

i entered a busy classroom,

preparing for the sci-fashionista ..

some singing, playing the guitars, others talking among themselves ..

i cant take a closer look,

i have something to do ..

i must not be distracted by him ..

but i was,

unfortunately ..

so i went down, with ruslene, renei, maxine and jezreel

for the science quiz bee ..

one hour of torture for us ..

fortunately ..

we won third place

so ..

afterwards i went upstairs ..

30 mins. break before we were called to go downstairs ..

it was s0 super hot ..

and i really meant HOT ..

so we stood under the baking sun ..

i felt dizzy x]]

and he escorted me to the clinic ..

he even bothered to go to the fifth floor and get my water jug ..

just for me ..

thanks ! [you know who you are]

when i have recovered slightly .

i went back to my franklin family

they were already at the room ..

they couldn't resist the sun i guess ..

so, they were there ..

fast forward ..

many of us were bored, tired and sleepy

and so, marc, duke, van, i, and gerald i guess

slept inside the room ..

unfortunately for the boys, except marc

bea applied make up on them

ahaha ..

and ..

duke placed a plastic on his barefoot ..

and when someone said

"duke, i labb yuh !!"

he placed the plastic on his head x]]

sabi nga ni marc :

"iisa lng ang paa at mukha ni duke"

ahehe ..

gling s paa, sinuot s ulo :]]

well anyways,

that was just some of their "kaadikan" x]]

another was, when marc was sleeping, charlene tossed a 25-centavo on him x]]

but one thing i can nver forget ..

i slept beside him..

and he, unknown to both of us,

held my hands,

one way or another x]]

well ..

i dont wanna post this thing at all ..

maybe just to remind me ..

well, my day isn't over ..

but i have to end this ..

its getting pretty lengthy ..

~ria~

192219

||wonderful||nOt!||

so this week was a bliss ??

well .. it was quite fast :))

and i kinda enjoyed it

a lot of emotions welled up inside me ..

and they all burst out awhile ago

i didnt notice the pressure

nor the pain of keeping it all deep within

it was today that

i cried hardest at school

it was today that my "daughter" cried

bcoz of her bff ..

yet again

it was today that my bestfriend first cried ..

maybe for the same reason i did ..

maybe not ..

so ..

a while ago ..

i wrote to my bestfriend ..

and she wrote back ..

until one message from her touched me ..

actually, it was just one word that mattered to me ..

"bestfriend"

all this time i thought,

i'm just nothing to her ..

all this time i've hurt just thinking that

"our friendship is lost"

then, i saw that one word ..

and boom

everything came rushing back ..

i wanted to cry right then and there but i couldn't

not yet

i have to write back ..

and so did i

and yeah ..

when she read my reply ..

she told me she wanted to cry but she couldn't ..

then i told her i'll make her cry ..

but i need to sacrifice something as well ..

so i leaned on her shoulder for the first time in months ..

how much i missed it ..

and when i did,

for just those few seconds ..

30 or so i guess

everything we've been through since first year

the happy and sad moments ..

everything came rushing back to my memory ..

and i realized the pain ..

and i realized my longing for her friendship ..

i really missed everything ..

and when i realized it all ..

i noticed my tears ..

i cried .

and i didn't even try to stop it ..

nor did i hide it from them ..

i want them to know that i also have my weakness ..

i cried

how free i felt as every tear fell fro my eyes ..

i noticed how light i felt after crying ..

and i noticed her,

crying with me ..

and i hugged her ..

i told her everything i havent told her ..

how much i missed her ..

how much i love her

how thankful i am to have her in my life ..

how sorry i am for not being able to do my part well ..

i told her everything ..

and she listened ..

how i missed this kind of bonding ..

and then, my "daughter" approached me ..

crying ..

i knew the reason ..

so i comforted her ..

the world didn't matter to me ..

i had my bestfriend ..

i had my "jazzie"

i need them ..

they need me ..

and jazzie's bff approached us,

also crying ..

and they talked ..

while my bestfriend and i talked ..

and everything was fine ..

afterwards i was able

to bond with my former classmates ..

i missed them too ..

so we went to 7-eleven

and i enjoyed the moment ..

but not everything was good ..

unfortunately ..

i'd rather not broadcast the negetive parts of this week ..

>>One Friend Left<<

http://www.imeem.com/ashjayr/music/6fe0qA2B/my_honey_jr_bernabe_jrs_if_i_had_only_one_friend_left/

I always thought you were the best

I guess i always will.

I always thought that we were blessed

And i feel that way still.

Sometimes we took the hard road

But we always saw it through.

If i had only one friend left

I'd want it to be you.

Sometimes the world was on our side

Sometimes it wasn't fair.

Sometimes it gave a helping hand

Sometimes we didn't care.

'cause when we were together

It made the dream come true.

If i had only one friend left

I'd want it to be you.

Someone who understands me

And knows me inside out.

Who helps keep me together

And believes without a doubt,

That i could move a mountain

With someone to tell it to.

If i had only one friend left

I'd want it to be you.

Someone who understands me

And knows me inside out

Who helps keep me together

And believes without a doubt,

That i could move a mountain

With someone to tell it to.

If i had only one friend left

I'd want it to be you

i dedicate thid dong to aubrey .. :))

~RiA~

i.refuse.to.fall.

i super labb this song:

Cant Take That Away From Me

--Mariah Carey

They can say

Anything they want to say

Try to bring me down

But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me

And they can try hard to make me feel that I

Don't matter at all

But I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's

There's a light in me

That shines brightly

They can try

But they can't take that away from me

From me

They can do

Anything they want to you

If you let them in

But they won't ever win

If you cling to you pride, and just push them aside

See I

I have learned

There's an inner peace I own

Something in my soul that they can not possess

So I won't be afraid and the darkness will fade

'Cause there's

There's light in me me

That shines brightly, yes

They can try,

But they can't take that away from me

They can't take this

Precious love I'll always have inside me

Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go

They can say

Anything they want to say

Try to bring me down

But I won't face the ground

I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach

Although they do try

Hard to make me feel that I

Don't matter at all

But I refuse to fall

Tell me what I believe or loose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's a light in me

That shines brightly yes

They can try but they can't take that away from me ..

---

i love this song too much ..
i can relate a lot ..
but somehow, i find it depressing ..
wen i listen to it ..
instead of having hope ..
i feel like
i'm d worst person in the world
somehow, dis song makes me more hopeless
and for some reason,
i like the way it feels
like i deserve it ..
something like that ..

well ..

just sharing ..

~RiiA~

.music.is.my.life.

ur the song that's inside of my soul

ur the life that flows through my veins

ur the oxygen i need, the air i breathe

ur everything i ever wanted

ur the reason for my tears

u light up my life

u give me wings and make me fly

ur the truth that see me in my weakness

ur are my one and only love

---

and yeah, you can say i'm kinda crazy ..
i wont deny it ..
if music is my life,
then ur the oxygen i need to survive ..
you are the melody that makes the lyrics beautiful ..

how i wish you can love me too ..
then, this song will be complete,
and the title's "me and you"

~RiiA~

.i.labb.yuh!.

wla lng ..
wla aq malagay ee
miss q n c eirene victorino :))
pati si *toot*
ahaha
baxta ..
labb q un labb q :))
gets mu ?
geh2 ..
un lng ..

~RiiA~