iLovey0u ,..

m0nday .. back t0 sch0oL ..
and my m0rning started g0od .. m0stLy bc0z, his smiLe was the first t0 greet me .. :]
but s0meh0w .. it didn't end that g0od ..
geraLd .. it's y0ur fauLt ;p
just kidding .. actuaLLy, its okay ..

but s0meh0w i'm hurting m0re than i expected t0 hurt ..
and i d0nt kn0w why .
actually, i d0 kn0w .. but this is x0o unacceptable ..
n0pe ..
n0t this reas0n ..

but it cant be helped can't it ??
its the truth ..
and sadLy .. this truth itseLf hurts me aLot aLready ..

s0 yeah ..
i have been feeling funny again ..
and when i finally f0und myself SOMEHOW contented with life ..
and f0r a m0ment i th0ught i w0uLd finally be happy ..
just a dream .. :]

and there is this person ..
a special one in my life ..
he is kind and by all means of the word "astig"
he is also fun to be with and a gentleman ..
also REALLY iNTELLiGENT ..
and waaaaaaaaaay t0o CUTE .. i mean HANDSOME ..

s0 yeah .. i c0uLd say i DO have s0me teenie weenie bit of feelings f0r this certain guy ..
s0 why d hell d0 i hurt this damn much ??
*sigh*

gerald, marc ..

i'm really so sorry ..
please ..
find it in y0ur heart to forgive me ..
please ..


~RiA~

make me faLL inLove with you AGAiN ..

make me love you once again ..
i d0nt need y0u to pr0ve that i'm d onlii one in y0ur heart ..
pr0ve t0 me y0ur w0rth ..
make me fall inl0ve again ..

i kn0w y0u are sweet and caring ..
i kn0w y0u can love a lot and t0o deep ..
but pr0ve y0ur w0rth ..
sh0w me s0me resp0nsibility ..

y0u always leave me hanging by a deadly thread ..
always leaving me behind
d0nt y0u dare d0 that again ..
or else y0u can never have me in y0ur life ..

if ever y0u succeed in making me love y0u again ..
let me warn y0u one m0re time ..
if ever y0u hurt me, one last time ..
i swear y0u w0uld suffer in hell .. :]

~RiA~

TGiF .. ;]

wh0oh !! thanks g0d its FRiDAY !! yay !! :]
n0 more stupid assignments t0 rush ab0ut :]
weLL .. i stiLL have MTAP f0r t0morr0w .. but it d0esn't matter ..
iLabb MatH !! :]

well .. we had a practice at rainf0rest ..
f0r our r0Le pLay in fiLipin0 ..
and .. yeah ..
i Labb the resuLt s0 far .. :]
and i was sh0cked by s0mething .. :]
i never expected it t0 happen !! n0t in my entire Life . !! :]

weLL, i admire b0ys hu cry with0ut hesitati0n .. :]
ahaha ..

"are y0u aLright?"
a questi0n he'd aLways ask me whenever i'm with him ..
d0es dat mean he CARES ?
f0r me ?
yeah .. maybe ..

he is s0rta my bestfriend ..
i'm aLways with him ..
he's always with me ..
always ready t0 listen t0 me ..
eventh0ugh he's busy ..
and i w0uLd faLL f0r him m0re each day ..

i nver reaLized it at first ..
untiL one day, it was his turn t0 cry ..
t0 reLy on my sh0uLders' strength ..
and i Listened intentLy Like i did with every0ne eLse ..

and t0 my sh0ck, i was hurt ..
i dunn0 why ..
but i feLt my breath c0nstrict ..
my heart is in pain ..
a LOT of pain ..
it makes my eyes swim with transparent tears ..

i c0uLdn't understand at first ..
but truth hit me Like a soLid bLock of ice ..
i have FALLEN for him ..
t0o unn0ticed by my scared heart ..
i just knew den ..
but i kn0w i mustn't ..

i COULDN'T ..

c0z we are s0 different ..
we are w0rLds apart ..
and his standards are t0o high ..
WAAAAAAY .. T0O HiGH ....
t0 be abLe t0 reach it :]

but i am c0ntented with this kind of love ..
wherein HE d0esn't kn0w ..
and i can siLentLy Love him ..
with0ut hurting t0o much ..

we are friends ..
and that's aLL i needed f0r n0w ..
i w0uLd never expect him t0 Love me back ..
bc0z i kn0w he w0uLd NEVER ..
that's f0r sure ..

everyday, i hurt bit by bit ..
and everday, i Love him m0re ..
i c0uLdn't understand this feeLing anym0re ..
Life is t0o c0mpLicated ..
that's why i d0n't understand ..

but i c0uldn't care less ..
i love him ..
that's what matters ..

~vaLcrie 17~

wednesday ..

another school day ..
i swear this would be a short post ...
we didn't have teachers for most of the day ..
so yeah ..
it is a party all day long ..
and we had a quiz in algebra ..
nothing much afterwards ..

uhm ..
i confronted her indirectly ..
like it was the wind ..
:]

well that's pretty much it ..

~valcrie 17~

c0nfusi0n and frustrati0n ..

the world is kinda frustrating ..
being able to see the mistakes but not being able to help remedy it ..
like bec0ming a d0ctor who can heaL everything
but lack the equipments needed t0 heal ..

everything in this world is supp0sed to be a balance of good and bad ..
but things continue to disrupt the balance ..
and slowly this world is deteriorating ..

start with the nature ..
the balance between replenishing and destroying is already overturned ..
and nature itself is destroying her life ..
along with ours ..

in the family ..
how many more stories of broken families do we need to hear ?
how many lives of children are supposed to be messed up bc0z of irresponsible parentho0d ?
h0w many m0re y0uth d0 we need to see fall down ..
h0w many m0re lives do we need t0 see destroyed ?
d0 we still need t0 wait f0r premature pregnancy t0 sh0ot upward t0 the zenith ?

h0w much m0re pr0blems d0 we need t0 experience bef0re we finally realize ?
h0w much m0re damage d0 we need t0 inflict on ourselves bef0re we open 0ur eyes ?

the best example is the family ..
m0st families t0day are suffering p0verty ..
children have little or n0 experience at studying at all ..
and teenagers often rebel against their parents ..
and parents d0 n0thing except fight over the high bill, and other stupid things ..
and if they separate?
they make their children as c0njugate pr0perty ..
what d0 y0u think of us ?!
t0ys ?
appliances that y0u can divide am0ng y0urselves ??
we are HUMANS f0r g0d's sake !!
we have feelings !!
we need b0th parents t0 have a happy and c0ntented life ..
can't they understand it ?

what more do the y0uth sh0ut f0r ??
FREEDOM ..
t0 explore our world
to be who we are ..
t0 belong ..
t0 be what we can and want to be ..
t0 enj0y ..
t0 be TEENAGERS of the m0dern times ..
n0t the G0LDEN times !!

we also need love and acceptance ..
we need t0 be underst0od and accepted f0r what we wanna be ..
f0r we really are ..
n0t f0r wh0 y0u want and expect us t0 be ..
we have are own limits ..
we can't always be the one wh0's on t0p ..
d0nt pressure us ..
bc0z we w0uld n0t listen t0 all y0ur c0mplaints ..
we need appreciati0n ..
we need ackn0wledgement ..

we also want to feel important ..
especially in the family ..
validate our feelings and we'll follow y0ur rules ..

i wr0te this 0ut of frustrati0n in life ..
well, family ..
it's kinda sad isn't it ??

here's another one :]

i'm c0nfused ..
what is it that y0u want with me ??
what am i t0 y0u ?
wh0 do y0u see when y0u look at me ??
do you see me ?
or do you see what you want me to bec0me ?

and h0w imp0rtant am i t0 y0u ?
d0 y0u even see me ?
n0tice me ?
feel that i exist ?
am i just a friend ?
or do y0u love me ??

h0w d0 y0u see me ?
as a special s0meone wh0m y0u cherish ?
as a friend y0u can trust ?
as a t0y y0u use t0 have fun ?

and w0uld y0u even ever love me ??
these are the questi0ns that i require an answer fr0m YOU ..
t0 clear my mind and appeace my heart ..
f0r i am t0taLLy c0nfused ..

d0 y0u see me ?
d0 y0u feel me ?
are y0u there f0r me ?
d0 y0u .. LOVE me ?

alright ..
let's end this stupidity here ..

~RiA~

p.s. i p0sted this one as me ..
a simple daughter
a loving child and c0usin ..
and a c0nfused girl ..

StrangeLy famiLiar .. :]

Like a stranger in the night ..
you swept me off my feet and gave me heaven ..
then suddenly y0u let g0 and send me back to hell ..
as fast as the speed of light ..
as swift as the m0ving air ..
as sorr0wfuL as the s0ng of night ..

the m0on is hiding behind the clouds ..
casting feeble and frail sliver of the silver m0onlight ..
the r0se is wilted and dry ..
starving f0r love and affecti0n ..
and warmth that only the sun pr0vides ..

y0ur the m0st familiar stranger ..
and a friend wh0's like a stranger ..
i dunn0 if it was y0u wh0 changed ..
0r was it me wh0 f0rget ?

y0ur my preci0us butterfly ..
the m0st beautiful jewelry in my c0Llecti0n ..
and like the stars in the sky ..
y0u disappeared with menti0n ..

i can't remember wh0 y0u are ..
where is the real y0u i used t0 kn0w ?
or did i just f0rget the way we are ..
or did the fire die under this sn0w ?

i'm missing y0u a lot ..
oh, where have y0u g0ne t0 ?
my heart craves f0r y0ur light ..
o, where have y0u g0ne t0 ?

y0u stabbed me with y0ur knife ..
sh0t me with y0ur siLver buLLet ..
Lo0k int0 my eyes as i die ..
and y0u'L see, deep inside, y0urseLf ..

maybe y0u're right ..
maybe i really d0nt kn0w y0u ..
maybe i was wr0ng ..
maybe we just d0nt belong ..

but still i love y0u ..
n0 matter what happens ..
and f0rever in my heart i'll treasure y0u ..
and cherish this friendship i've nver imagined ..

~iLoveyOu~

feeling d0wn and blue ..
d0 y0u think y0u g0t who i am pertaining t0 ?
n0 ..
i d0nt think s0 ..
well maybe y0u d0 ..
but i w0nt tell y0u ..
i l0ve this pers0n much t0 say anything bad against her ..

if i'm 0nLy tr0ubLe t0 y0u ..
it's ok ..
i w0nt step in y0ur way anym0re ..
call me if y0u still need t0 play ..
if y0u still need a t0oL ..
if y0u still need a sh0uLder t0 cry on ..
if y0u still need a friend ..

i'm f0r rent but f0r y0u its free ..
c0z i serve only those who need me ..
if y0u really d0nt accept me or acknowledge me as your BEST friend
then it's fine ..
i swear ..
i'll be okay ..
i pr0mise ..
i will try t0 smile and laugh like there's n0 knife stabbed at my chest ..
i will c0ntinue my life as th0ugh n0thing restricts my breath ..
and then when time c0mes that y0u'll need me back ..
just call my name ..

y0u were the best person i've ever known ..
and that doesnt change ..
if to you i'm "nothing but TROUBLE"
then i hope i would be the best trouble .. :D

i l0ve y0u !! :]
always take care ..
please ..

~RiA~

p.s. this is a post of mine as ME .. and n0t as a lovestruck teenager ..
this post is kinda hurting me :]
but i'll have to endure it, right ?

sch0oL day .. *sigh*

i th0ught t0day wiLL be happy and perfect ..
c0z finaLLy i g0t to see the pe0pLe m0st imp0rtant t0 me ..
but like what the song says :
"madaming namamatay sa maling akala .."
it wasn't as HAPPY as i anticipated it w0uLd be ..
bc0z i was made the "laughing st0ck" at pLane ge0m ..
oh g0d !!
insecurity kiLLs the cat !! *sigh*
and what m0re, VAN Led it .. *sigh*
but it's 0ver ..
it's aLright n0w ..
i've breathed en0ugh ..

over aLL, the rest of my time is "fine"
well, fine en0ugh ..
i guess ??

what made my day the worst is s0mething i've read ..
s0mething S0 UNEXPECTED ..
something that w0uLd definiteLy break a pers0n's heart ..

s0 .. first things first *wink*
i went inside the gates t0 find "qui0ge" filtering the students with and with out patches, level bars, and i.d.
for short,
"dahiL bago, pasikat"
-an0nym0us *grin*
so, i was abLe to breathe freeLy ..
i have b0th ..
s0 i went upstairs feeLing s0rry f0r the "0nes i've left behind" *giggle*
i c0uldn't d0 anything ab0ut it, can't i ?
i'm c0mpLeteLy p0werLess against "qui0ge"

s0 yeah, basicaLLy, when i arrived, i was surprised that we were still "few"
and after a few minutes, geraLd, van and marc arrived .. *grin*
they s0rta caught my attenti0n since they are my "best friends"
s0 yeah .. after h0mer0om c0mes our m0st "fav0rite subject"
~sa j0hnny g. bida ang hist0ry~
*laugh*
c0rny ?? whatever ..
idc ..

s0 we had a sh0rt "essay quiz"
or was it "quiz essay?" *grin*
i dunn0
i wasn't paying attenti0n ..
s0 yeah, basicaLLy i survived with 220 words all in all ..
pretty many ayt ? *grin*
mind y0u, it t0ok me 23 minutes t0 finish just 220 w0rds .. *giggle*
well, m0stly due t0 c0unting :]

i keep losing track of the number of words so i had to start all over again ..
i think i restarted for 15 times bef0re i c0uld finally c0unt one item's w0rds :]
s0 yeah, finaLLy it was over .. :D

after s0csci is MAPEH ..
with 0ur gangstah m0m ..
m0mie didz *winks* *applause*
and as always, i enj0yed the peri0d ..
i think i g0t 7 in the quiz ??
i dunn0 ..
i f0rgot .. :D

ohh!! we aLso had a psych0 game *winks*
i averaged fairLy matureLy *giggLe*
s0 yeah ..
it was kinda unbeLievabLe ..
kn0wing that the w0rLd sees me as peacefuL, quiet and kind *LOL*
much m0re the fact that i am reaLLy "free" , "trustworthy" and "resp0nsibLe"
*faints*
kidding aside ..
yeah, that was kinda true :]

s0 c0mes recess ..
i practicaLLy "f0oLed ar0und"
n0t d0ing anything w0rthwhiLe ..

vaLues c0mes next ..
weLL, a gr0up rep0rting and i faiLed t0 bring my n0teb0ok s0 i stiLL have t0 borr0w one fr0m grace t0 have s0me n0tes ..

after vaLues is engLish .
one of my fav0rite subjects *LOL*
i reaLLy missed sir LoyoLa over the three-day break ..
s0 we enj0yed ..
i stiLL have t0 write the letter in my j0urnaL :D
ohh ..
speaking of j0urnaL ..
i w0uLd write A LOT t0day in it ..

after engLish comes bi0Logy ..
my beLoved subject as weLL *winks*
s0 we had a chapter test and i faired at 31/45 (partiaL sc0re)
practicaLLy n0thing exciting ..

Lunch time was the same ..
i didn't d0 anything much ..

then pLane ge0m ..
an0ther fave subject of mine *grins*
weLL, i was pretty much in a bad m0od f0r this peri0d .. ^^as i menti0ned ab0ve ^^
but i enj0yed it nevertheless ..

after pLane ge0m was chem ..
i had s0me time t0 think over whether or n0t i w0uLd be in a bad m0od or n0t ..
and i decided on the Latter .. :D
s0 i c0oLed d0wn and started t0 smiLe, Laugh and taLk ..
g0od thing bea and marc existed in that r0om :D

after chem was the unexpected visitor --teacher-- in envi science ..
s0 i practicaLLy Loved this peri0d bc0z i was sitting between van and geraLd ..
and yeah ..
that was pretty much it :D

afterwards was fiLipin0 ..
g0d !! 7/20 !!
but i think it w0uLd be sLightLy reas0nabLe since we weren't there when they discussed ab0ut th0se :D

then, dismissaL
and n0w here i am at h0me ;]
s0 ..
that was basicaLLy it ..
i "cens0red" s0me things that are sLightLy pers0naL since they were c0nversati0ns that are supp0sed t0 be SECRETS ..
and i kn0w h0w t0 shut my m0uth ..

i better end this n0w ..

Labb.Labb. yah !!

~vaLcrie 17~

aLone .. y0u and i ..

the worLd reaLLy is a big mystery ..
everything is supposed to be discovered before you learn about it ..
and there are just some things you cant understand ..
and things you never imagined would happen ..

one good example is love ..
who would have thought that a girl like me who grew up with nothing but hatred learn how to love ??
whow ould have thought that my friends today could actually melt my impenetrable ice ??
and who would have thought that i'd fall in love ?

things that are unbelievable but could really happen
and things dat happen that you just couldn't understand why it happens ..
things that doesn't have scientific explanations and mathematical equations ..
phenomenas that not even the greatest philosophers of the world could explain ..

another great example is why we get hurt?
why do we have to feel these when we can just be happy..
why do we feel jealousy? sadness? anger and fear?
why do these happen?
can any mathematecian present an equation that can solve that problem?
how about scientists?
could they explain how these happens through all the genes and molecules and atoms and elements that they have ever discovered?
how about philosophers?
could they still think of reasons as to why these occured?
no.

does this mean that not everything should have a reaseon?
no.
it only means that, we shouldn't strive for perfection.
we should not vainly try to know everything about the world
the world's mystery is wonderful enough to ponder ..
we don't need to find concrete evidence for everything ..
just what we know about it ..

only then can we appreciate how much we really know about the world,
this world where we live and the very same world that gave us life ..

i am currently confused ..
i dunno why i fet jealousy and pain when he said that ..
he doesn't even belong to me ..
and i love someone else .. right?

is it possible to love two persons as much?
no. i don't think so ..

but how come you could love your family, you friends and classmates with the same kind of love ?
why not THIS kind of love?
what's the difference ?
is it really wrong ?
maybe.
maybe because we grew up with the notion that love should be reserved for only one special person ..
but don't you fall inlove with different people at the same level?
why can't it not be at the same time ?

no.
not this stupidity ..
stop it ..
this will get you nowhere ..
not this ..
please ..
not this ..

but what if it is ??
can you stop it ?

i dunno ..
but i must ..
this is wrong ..

nobody said it was wrong ..
its just you and your decision ..

still, it's wrong ..

GOD !!

what's wrong with me !?

i hate this cluelessness i feel !!
i hate this confusion
i hate this lost feeling !!

i hate ... this.

~vaLcrie17~

UNTiTLED .. (~_+)

thankies x0o much ate remi !! aiLabbyah matsz !! :]
n0thing t0 do .. s0 i just p0st the m0st rand0m things i c0uld think of .. :]

i'm the most random person you'll ever know ..
one minute sad, the other moment smiling ..
i'm never stuck in a constant manner ..
always changing ..
unique in my own way ..

my randomness starts from my attitude to the way i dress ..
even my music ..
i d0nt settle for what's popular or what is in ..
i dont follow THE RELIGION at all ..
i dont blend in ..
i STAND OUT ..

i'm a free spirited person ..
i always mean what i say ..
but i sometimes keep my mouth shut ..
i am also known to be a passive person ..
i am gifted with a deep sense of patience ..
but if i reached my limit, i mean it ..

i easily laugh ..
i easily cry ..
i'm temperemental ..
moody at times ..
i'm just a typical girl ..

i wasn't gifted with a good sense of humor ..
i can be pretty boring at times ..
but if you are a soul with a talkative side ..
then you and i will definitely click ..
i talk when i have something to say
and i d0nt when i'm n0t in the m0od ..
i'm kinda quiet at times ..
but when i finally feel my well overflowing i speak ..
and i mean i talk a lot ..

i've mentioned a while ago that i'm moody ..
and there are times when i would suddenly not talk to you at all ..
don't worry ..
i'm not mad at you ..
i just want you to exert effort ..
for short ..
NAGLALAMBiNG LANG AKO ..
i dont get angry for a long time ..
the longest is a week ..
in fact the shortest is a second .. :]
kidding aside ..
i easily forgive ..
but i do not forget ..
i just dont mind ..

everyone makes mistakes ..
there are no exceptions to that ..
some just makes lesser mistakes ..
i myself am guilty of that law ..

i'm only human ..
like you, i get tired ..
i get full ..
we will all get wet when the sky decided to fall on us ..
sa tagalog :
LAHAT TAYO MABABASA PAG ANG LANGiT AY BiGLANG LUMUHA ..
the shoutout of my bestfriend MARC ..
whatever things you went through,
all the emotions ..
i also feel them ..
i guess i'm just a bit blessed by having a more flexible environment ..

speaking of flexible ..
i'm not a gymnast ..
i'm far .. TOO FAR .. from being one ..
:]
i'm fairly flexible in terms of physical means ..
and i'm super flexible when it comes to mental and emotional standards ..
in fact, EXTREMELY flexible ..

hmm ..
i act maturely at times ..
and sometimes i would act childish ..
i would just laugh at problems ..
and smile eventhough i hurt ..
but all the same ..
we all reach a point in our life wherein we had to pretend that nothing is wrong ..
that you're just fine ..
that everything is alright ..

so practically ..
i'm a great pretender ..
:]
i can deceive with my smile
my frown
my pout ..
my tears ..
i'm the greatest ACTRESS iN TRAiNiNG ..
the DRAMA QUEEN ..

over-all, i'm n0t perfect ..
and i love my self for being perfectly iMPERFECT ..

"i'M n0t pretty .. i'M just ME .."

THE BEST LABEL YOU CAN CALL YOURSELF: ~ME~

i sh0uLd end this n0nsense n0w ;]

Labb.Labb. yah aLL !!

~vaLcrie 17~

b0red0m kiLLs

i'm s0 super b0red !!
n0thing g0od to do ..
wish i can go to sch0oL and study aLgebra, p6, pLane ge0metry, bi0 ..
i can take in all of those ..
but n0t b0red0m !! n0 way !!

i wish i couLd d0 s0mething w0rthwhiLe ..
Like read a b0ok ?
nah-uh !
n0t n0w .. n0t in my gLorious break ..
oh, GOD !
i'm even at a Loss of wat t0 say !!

i hate this feeling !!
it's like i'm an open b0ok n0 one likes to read ..
like a s0Ldier in an open fieLd, with0ut shieLd
a chiLd caught off-guard ..
i d0nt like this lost feeling .. it's s0 ...
DiSTURBiNG ..
*sigh*

b0red.b0red.b0red.b0red.
i wanna kiLL s0me time ..
i wanna g0 out and hang out with my friends ..
but i cant ..
bc0z they all have their own lives ..
i wanna g0 explore ..
but i d0nt want to do it AL0NE ..
there's just n0 fun ..

aww !! g0d !! this is s0 frustrating !!
suggesti0ns ? t0 kiLL dis feeLing ..
and its seems t0 eat me t0 my nerves ..
especially bc0z i have n0body t0 taLk t0 ..

oh well ..
c0mpLeteLy heLpLess .. this 0ne is ..
_ _ _ _ !!
i hate it !! *sigh*

i better end my blog here ..
bef0re i can say s0me f0uL w0rds ..

~vaLcrie 17~

SiCK (~_+)

s0 yeah ..
it's a gLorious day f0r students aLL over metr0 maniLa
n0 classes ..
yeah right ..
the only thing i gained is that i can rest without being marked ABSENT :]
s0 basically, em sick
bc0z of that stupid rain ..
i hate igme !! :p
i d0nt have allowance ..
and i couldn't see him !! *sigh*
Oh, well .. cant do much about it can i ??

i'm also feeling sick inside ..
i haven't noticed it much ..
bc0z i'm t0o busy thinking ab0ut s0mething else ..
i didn't n0tice my self deteriorating

i'm slowly fading away ..
disappearing to oblivion ..
everything is dark and hazy ..
all i could see is a blur of gray and black ..
the darkness is closing on me .. suffocating ..
i can't breathe.

all i could see is the see of darkness stretching on endlessly ..
it's like swimming in an ocean ..
where the water seemed to burn your flesh ..

i'm trying to fight this darkness ..
but it is overwhelming me ..
my limbs are numb and broken ..
my eyes are tired ..
my body is weakening ..
all i could do is give in ..

as i lay there, in the middle of the peaceful cha0s,
stiff as a log,
i felt the hands of death caress me ..
slowly pulling me in to the endless depths of the water ..
burning me..
and all i could feel is the pain restricting my breath ..
here in my chest ..

i'm freely giving in,
welcoming death with open arms ..
my life has now ended ..

goodbye, goodbye ..
please, weep not ..
i'll always be by your side ..
never leaving you ..
watching over you ..

i wrote this because i've been feeling empty
especially in our house ..
yeah, i admit .. i'm the blacksheep here ..
basically useless ..
i dunno ..
i just miss d old times ..
when we were not yet crowded ..
when it is just us, my parents and i and my cousin ..
only four of us ..
i miss d old times ..

i guess its not always "the more the merrier"
in life ..
sometimes its "the more people you meet, the more bad luck you encounter"
i guess that couldn't be helped as well ..

it's kinda frustrating isn't it ?
y0u have the whole world set before your eyes ..
y0u can always say wat you find wrong in it ..
but you can't help it ..
you can't do anything about it ..
c0z ur onlii one ..
and your helpless
COMPLETELY HELPLESS ..

i better end this blog for now ..
i couldn't think of anything more to say ..

~vaLcrie 17~

n0 cLasses !! :'(

aww .. n0 classes !! in elementary and high school (~_+)
i w0uLdn't see him
tskk ..
i hate it !!
but its okay ..
c0z i feel like i'm g0nna be sick ..
ahaha ..
at least i wouldn't be marked absent ..

hmm .. well, what could i write ?
hmm ..

LabeLs ..
i hate it as much as i hate o2jam ..
LabeLs Like em0, punk, ghetto, hiph0p, gangstah .. etc.
i mean, why do we need divisions ?
why do we need to fall under one kind ? one class ?
why can't we be just unique in our own ways ?
why do we have to be under the same trend ?
fashion, music, lifestyle ..
everything is the same under one label ..
why can't we just be LabeLed as ME
why do we have to be either EMO, PUNK, GHETTO, HiPHOP, GANGSTER, BLOODS, CRIPZ, and who knows what else ??

will we still retain that LabeL tiLL we die ?
of course not !
as we pass our teenage life, we won't consider these anymore
it's just nonsense that we created to "belong"
why do teenagers have to die because of gang war ?
of initiation ?
of suicide?

what a waste of life ..
a waste of all the opportunities ..
i myself am guilty of these labels ..
and i fell under EMO ..
i know my mistake ..
but luckily, i realized it early

i'm practically against this LabeL thing ..
think matureLy pe0pLe ..
kiLL me if y0u want f0r saying that y0ur "kingdom" is useless
but i d0 think that it is ..
it's my opinion ..
y0u cant judge it ..

alright .. this idea came out of the blue ,,
no, actually, i wrote this because i'm getting pissed off by my cousin !!
the hell with being gangztah ?!
i couldn't care less about his label than i care about what will happen to my life
*sigh*

and i also have another cousin who
unfortunately fell under the demons of society
EMO
how i would want to smash a bottle on her head just to wake her up and get her back to reality ..
i mean .. LabeLs are OA
to the extent that they seemed to discard their own lifestyle to follow their trend
its becoming their religion
labels eat your soul
i swear it does ..

it's kinda addicting, i know ..
but i think it's time people wake up ..
i guess i should end it here ..
before everyone sends knives flyin at me ..
*ducks under the table and tries to see who threw the knife at her*

whew !
another one i hate is computer games !!
starting from the most popular DOTA !!
to the most addicting AUDITION and O2JAM !!
that's the number one enemy of parents, teachers and Lovers ..
grr !!
well, i couldn't do much about it ..
it's their life ..

*sigh*
currently chatting with eirene and van ..
slightly down
but happy that finally, i can talk to van again ..
since we didn't talk last friday ..
oh well

i really miss eirene !!
i love y0u hershey !!
*grins*

well .. lets end this craziness here ..
:]

~vaLcrie 17~

Second Best (~_+)

-- by HENRiANNE DELA CRUZ

i'm aLways the Loser ..
aLways second best ..
overshadowed,
unimportant ..

Nothing speciaL, extrordinary
Nothing worth the notice and praise ..
Nothing much,
Just second best...

aLmost there,
if 0nLii i tried harder,
went faster,
became better,
aLways sec0nd best

y0u're the first Loser,
the biggest faiLure
being sec0nd best ..

you're aLmost ther
aLmost the best
ALM0ST
what a crueL w0rd.
0nLii SEC0ND BEST

y0ur the Loser,
aLm0st the winner
unn0ticed
unappreciated

SECOND BEST ..

always second best..

at home

at school

in the community

in the church

in the "barkada"

EVEN iN HiS HEART !! (~_+)

ahaha ..

an0ther bLog posted in a day
:D
i'm wide awake
bc0z i fell asLeep awhiLe ag0
well, its still earLy
i guess n0thing much to be noticed

its Sunday ..
the last day of my agony
tomorrow, its already Monday
another day back to my real world
my real life
my high school life
my student world :D
and another week-long of happiness, jealousy, and sadness

all at the same time

i'm gonna see my beloved "family" tomorrow

am i excited?

yeah ..

i guess so ..

i l0ve them much

that's why i missed them already .. :]

i'm also gonna see HiM tomorrow

and yeah, i admit, i'm excited
so much, it hurts
but it hurts in a good way :]
i already miss him ..
a LOT ..
my special person
my number one person

what i'm currently doing now ?
hmm ..
chat, and writing this blog
sountripping
i'm currently talking to grace and gerbene..
two of my classmates
two special people in my life..

hmm..

what else can i say ?
ohh yeah ! i'm hungry !! :]
i didn't eat dinner :D
the reason?
i'm n0t in the m0od :]

ohh! a question raised by myself that i couldn't decide on

"would i admit my feelings for him?"

i know i love him.
i know he DOESN'T
what's the point right ?
just for closure
just so he knows how much i hurt everyday
knowing that he is thinking of her :]

my question was answered by grace ..

"dont, not yet"

i guess she had a point :D
she just don't want me to be LabeLed a fLirt
:]
what a friend :]

bea thought that i ought to say though ..

i wonder what geraLd thinks about it ??
he thinks its okay .. *sigh*
whatta !!

well i better end this here ..
it's getting pretty lengthy

~VaLcrie 17~

Rain :]

if i cant be ur onLii 0ne,
den let me be y0ur n0thing ..
just let me watch y0u fr0m afar,
and see y0u while y0u are falling ..


then, dat way, y0u w0nt see my tears,
and hear my heart beat, wat it screams...
i l0ve y0u more than anything else,
and i w0uld onlii hurt m0re it seems...

but i'm n0t selfish, i'm n0t blind
i kn0w wh0 y0u'll be happy with ..
and as long as i c0uld see y0u smiling,
i kn0w by den can i 0nLii breathe ..

but please, just let me l0ve y0u ..
c0z ur d very AiR i need t0 live ..
and with0ut y0u here, in my heart ..
i kn0w i c0uldn't breathe ..

--One of my OriginaLs . inspired by the one i Love the most

i Labb d rain ..
its s0 c0mforting ..
the h0wLing wind,
the rage of nature,
the hard fall of the rain that seemed to embed on your skin.
but wat i love most about the rain ?
it hides my sadness
it masks my tears
it hides me from the world
and i can be anything under the rain
i can be me,
i can be who i want to be,
no one would care
the rain hides how i really feel,

i really am in love with you ..
but somehow, i know you dont love me ..
and you dont have to love me ..
no, not at all ..
i'll be contented at seeing you happy
loving her
dreaming of her
though we both know you couldn't have her
i know, and so do you,
that you love only her..

i guess, i'll just have to do what i would always do
trying to get the pain away
trying to hide it all
trying to be "Okay" when the truth is "i'm not"
smiling like nothing is wrong with me
pretending...
pretending that i don't care and that you don't matter to me ..
pretending that i would be fine without you ..
when the truth is the opposite of everything

iLoveyOu !!

this is where i end this blog ..

~VaLcrie 17~

All or Nothing

Coz i want it all...
Or nothing at all...
There's no where left to fall,
when you reach the bottom its NOW or NEVER ..
is it all?
Or are we just FRiENDS!?
is this how it ends?
with a simple telephone call, y0u leave me here

with nothing at all

-All or Nothing by O-town

hi .. i'm just bored so i wrote this nonsense blog.
i'm henrianne by the way.
a simple girl from pasig city.
a student in Pasig City Science High School

i love music, drawing, singing,and writing nonsense stories and poems
i'm a romantic person
i love reading books.
but enough of me.

no, i guess that couldn't be said here,
bcoz blog is all about me.
about my life,
my craziness.
my stupidity
my happiness
my sadness
my emotions.
everything that i couldn't say to the world.

well, here it is.
i'm a sophomore student and i belong to
class Franklin.
and i LOVE them all.
my friends,
~Jasmine~
~Bea~
~Marc~
~Gerald~
~Diana~
~Grace~
~Hadley~
~Van~
~Charlene~
we are happy in the room, sharing problems
copying assignments *grins*
telling stories
sharing thoughts
studying..

we are practically one FAMiLY
our adviser is Ms, Desiree Didulo
our beloved mother *smile*
she is a nice woman.
cool and kind.
and she cares more about the students than the school

alright,
so practically, i enjoyed the presence of my classmates
more than i enjoyed the presence
of my other classmates
because, here, i can stay silent
and still belong
i dunno.
my mind is peaceful in this room.

so, in this room there are 4 most important persons in my life
first is JASMiNE
she is my "daughter" and bestfriend at the same time
she had been my classmate since first year
and we weren't close by then.
why we became "bestfriends" is because
she would cry,
and i would always be the first to listen to her hurts
i care for her so much.
like a real mother
and like a bestfriend as well.

second is MARC
he is a former "aris" student
and i've just known him this june 10, 2008
but somehow,
i find myself so comfortable in his presence.
i can even tell him my darkest secrets without second thoughts.
something in him made me trust him.
i just dunno what.
he is kind and thoughtful too.
and a very funny person as well.
he have deep insights about the world
an optimist.
he would always comfort me at times that i seem to "run wild"
and i would always admire how he could do it so naturally.

the third is GERALD
he is sorta my bestfriend.
and i can tell him all sorts of secret
he is chubby and cute,
and he is always discriminated. *grins*
but he is kind.
and a gentleman??? *laughs*
he trusts me as much as i trust him.
he knows who my "love" is..
and i know who he "loves"
we kinda share the same pain and "heartache"
ahaha.
i admire his coolheadedness.

and lastly, VAN.
he became a close person in my life.
he is kind. and cute *laughs*
he is also intelligent.
and a gentleman?????????? *grins*
well, he is a funny person at times.
and i feel peaceful around him.
i love talking to him,
and he loves talking to me.
mutual?
i guess so ..
well, i love him ..
as my friend. *grins*
i know who he loves.
and i know his crushes... *laugh*
well, i guess he's a person you can easily like.
he is natural and true.

i also met in pasig science EiRENE ViCTORiNO
a "bhebie"
my hershey ..
a bestfriend, a lover? and a sister to me..
iloveher much !
she is so caring and a fighter.
i admire her strength.
and the ability to laugh at all her problems.
she is also sweet.
she is the cousin of MARC CAPCO
but sadly, she doesn't study in our school anymore
but it doesn't matter.
we still keep in touch.

i guess i better end it here.
i have written pretty much enough nonsense here.
goodbye.

~vaLcrie 17~