the worLd reaLLy is a big mystery ..
everything is supposed to be discovered before you learn about it ..
and there are just some things you cant understand ..
and things you never imagined would happen ..
one good example is love ..
who would have thought that a girl like me who grew up with nothing but hatred learn how to love ??
whow ould have thought that my friends today could actually melt my impenetrable ice ??
and who would have thought that i'd fall in love ?
things that are unbelievable but could really happen
and things dat happen that you just couldn't understand why it happens ..
things that doesn't have scientific explanations and mathematical equations ..
phenomenas that not even the greatest philosophers of the world could explain ..
another great example is why we get hurt?
why do we have to feel these when we can just be happy..
why do we feel jealousy? sadness? anger and fear?
why do these happen?
can any mathematecian present an equation that can solve that problem?
how about scientists?
could they explain how these happens through all the genes and molecules and atoms and elements that they have ever discovered?
how about philosophers?
could they still think of reasons as to why these occured?
no.
does this mean that not everything should have a reaseon?
no.
it only means that, we shouldn't strive for perfection.
we should not vainly try to know everything about the world
the world's mystery is wonderful enough to ponder ..
we don't need to find concrete evidence for everything ..
just what we know about it ..
only then can we appreciate how much we really know about the world,
this world where we live and the very same world that gave us life ..
i am currently confused ..
i dunno why i fet jealousy and pain when he said that ..
he doesn't even belong to me ..
and i love someone else .. right?
is it possible to love two persons as much?
no. i don't think so ..
but how come you could love your family, you friends and classmates with the same kind of love ?
why not THIS kind of love?
what's the difference ?
is it really wrong ?
maybe.
maybe because we grew up with the notion that love should be reserved for only one special person ..
but don't you fall inlove with different people at the same level?
why can't it not be at the same time ?
no.
not this stupidity ..
stop it ..
this will get you nowhere ..
not this ..
please ..
not this ..
but what if it is ??
can you stop it ?
i dunno ..
but i must ..
this is wrong ..
nobody said it was wrong ..
its just you and your decision ..
still, it's wrong ..
GOD !!
what's wrong with me !?
i hate this cluelessness i feel !!
i hate this confusion
i hate this lost feeling !!
i hate ... this.
~vaLcrie17~
