s0 yeah ..
it's a gLorious day f0r students aLL over metr0 maniLa
n0 classes ..
yeah right ..
the only thing i gained is that i can rest without being marked ABSENT :]
s0 basically, em sick
bc0z of that stupid rain ..
i hate igme !! :p
i d0nt have allowance ..
and i couldn't see him !! *sigh*
Oh, well .. cant do much about it can i ??
i'm also feeling sick inside ..
i haven't noticed it much ..
bc0z i'm t0o busy thinking ab0ut s0mething else ..
i didn't n0tice my self deteriorating
i'm slowly fading away ..
disappearing to oblivion ..
everything is dark and hazy ..
all i could see is a blur of gray and black ..
the darkness is closing on me .. suffocating ..
i can't breathe.
all i could see is the see of darkness stretching on endlessly ..
it's like swimming in an ocean ..
where the water seemed to burn your flesh ..
i'm trying to fight this darkness ..
but it is overwhelming me ..
my limbs are numb and broken ..
my eyes are tired ..
my body is weakening ..
all i could do is give in ..
as i lay there, in the middle of the peaceful cha0s,
stiff as a log,
i felt the hands of death caress me ..
slowly pulling me in to the endless depths of the water ..
burning me..
and all i could feel is the pain restricting my breath ..
here in my chest ..
i'm freely giving in,
welcoming death with open arms ..
my life has now ended ..
goodbye, goodbye ..
please, weep not ..
i'll always be by your side ..
never leaving you ..
watching over you ..
i wrote this because i've been feeling empty
especially in our house ..
yeah, i admit .. i'm the blacksheep here ..
basically useless ..
i dunno ..
i just miss d old times ..
when we were not yet crowded ..
when it is just us, my parents and i and my cousin ..
only four of us ..
i miss d old times ..
i guess its not always "the more the merrier"
in life ..
sometimes its "the more people you meet, the more bad luck you encounter"
i guess that couldn't be helped as well ..
it's kinda frustrating isn't it ?
y0u have the whole world set before your eyes ..
y0u can always say wat you find wrong in it ..
but you can't help it ..
you can't do anything about it ..
c0z ur onlii one ..
and your helpless
COMPLETELY HELPLESS ..
i better end this blog for now ..
i couldn't think of anything more to say ..
~vaLcrie 17~
