Second Best (~_+)

-- by HENRiANNE DELA CRUZ

i'm aLways the Loser ..
aLways second best ..
overshadowed,
unimportant ..

Nothing speciaL, extrordinary
Nothing worth the notice and praise ..
Nothing much,
Just second best...

aLmost there,
if 0nLii i tried harder,
went faster,
became better,
aLways sec0nd best

y0u're the first Loser,
the biggest faiLure
being sec0nd best ..

you're aLmost ther
aLmost the best
ALM0ST
what a crueL w0rd.
0nLii SEC0ND BEST

y0ur the Loser,
aLm0st the winner
unn0ticed
unappreciated

SECOND BEST ..

always second best..

at home

at school

in the community

in the church

in the "barkada"

EVEN iN HiS HEART !! (~_+)

ahaha ..

an0ther bLog posted in a day
:D
i'm wide awake
bc0z i fell asLeep awhiLe ag0
well, its still earLy
i guess n0thing much to be noticed

its Sunday ..
the last day of my agony
tomorrow, its already Monday
another day back to my real world
my real life
my high school life
my student world :D
and another week-long of happiness, jealousy, and sadness

all at the same time

i'm gonna see my beloved "family" tomorrow

am i excited?

yeah ..

i guess so ..

i l0ve them much

that's why i missed them already .. :]

i'm also gonna see HiM tomorrow

and yeah, i admit, i'm excited
so much, it hurts
but it hurts in a good way :]
i already miss him ..
a LOT ..
my special person
my number one person

what i'm currently doing now ?
hmm ..
chat, and writing this blog
sountripping
i'm currently talking to grace and gerbene..
two of my classmates
two special people in my life..

hmm..

what else can i say ?
ohh yeah ! i'm hungry !! :]
i didn't eat dinner :D
the reason?
i'm n0t in the m0od :]

ohh! a question raised by myself that i couldn't decide on

"would i admit my feelings for him?"

i know i love him.
i know he DOESN'T
what's the point right ?
just for closure
just so he knows how much i hurt everyday
knowing that he is thinking of her :]

my question was answered by grace ..

"dont, not yet"

i guess she had a point :D
she just don't want me to be LabeLed a fLirt
:]
what a friend :]

bea thought that i ought to say though ..

i wonder what geraLd thinks about it ??
he thinks its okay .. *sigh*
whatta !!

well i better end this here ..
it's getting pretty lengthy

~VaLcrie 17~