so this week was a bliss ??
well .. it was quite fast :))
and i kinda enjoyed it
a lot of emotions welled up inside me ..
and they all burst out awhile ago
i didnt notice the pressure
nor the pain of keeping it all deep within
it was today that
i cried hardest at school
it was today that my "daughter" cried
bcoz of her bff ..
yet again
it was today that my bestfriend first cried ..
maybe for the same reason i did ..
maybe not ..
so ..
a while ago ..
i wrote to my bestfriend ..
and she wrote back ..
until one message from her touched me ..
actually, it was just one word that mattered to me ..
"bestfriend"
all this time i thought,
i'm just nothing to her ..
all this time i've hurt just thinking that
"our friendship is lost"
then, i saw that one word ..
and boom
everything came rushing back ..
i wanted to cry right then and there but i couldn't
not yet
i have to write back ..
and so did i
and yeah ..
when she read my reply ..
she told me she wanted to cry but she couldn't ..
then i told her i'll make her cry ..
but i need to sacrifice something as well ..
so i leaned on her shoulder for the first time in months ..
how much i missed it ..
and when i did,
for just those few seconds ..
30 or so i guess
everything we've been through since first year
the happy and sad moments ..
everything came rushing back to my memory ..
and i realized the pain ..
and i realized my longing for her friendship ..
i really missed everything ..
and when i realized it all ..
i noticed my tears ..
i cried .
and i didn't even try to stop it ..
nor did i hide it from them ..
i want them to know that i also have my weakness ..
i cried
how free i felt as every tear fell fro my eyes ..
i noticed how light i felt after crying ..
and i noticed her,
crying with me ..
and i hugged her ..
i told her everything i havent told her ..
how much i missed her ..
how much i love her
how thankful i am to have her in my life ..
how sorry i am for not being able to do my part well ..
i told her everything ..
and she listened ..
how i missed this kind of bonding ..
and then, my "daughter" approached me ..
crying ..
i knew the reason ..
so i comforted her ..
the world didn't matter to me ..
i had my bestfriend ..
i had my "jazzie"
i need them ..
they need me ..
and jazzie's bff approached us,
also crying ..
and they talked ..
while my bestfriend and i talked ..
and everything was fine ..
afterwards i was able
to bond with my former classmates ..
i missed them too ..
so we went to 7-eleven
and i enjoyed the moment ..
but not everything was good ..
unfortunately ..
i'd rather not broadcast the negetive parts of this week ..
>>One Friend Left<<
I always thought you were the best
I guess i always will.
I always thought that we were blessed
And i feel that way still.
Sometimes we took the hard road
But we always saw it through.
If i had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you.
Sometimes the world was on our side
Sometimes it wasn't fair.
Sometimes it gave a helping hand
Sometimes we didn't care.
'cause when we were together
It made the dream come true.
If i had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you.
Someone who understands me
And knows me inside out.
Who helps keep me together
And believes without a doubt,
That i could move a mountain
With someone to tell it to.
If i had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you.
Someone who understands me
And knows me inside out
Who helps keep me together
And believes without a doubt,
That i could move a mountain
With someone to tell it to.
If i had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you
i dedicate thid dong to aubrey .. :))
~RiA~
