i've just been bored to death so i tried searching for my past blogs .. to get an idea ..
then i came across this one blog about my dreams and fears
it was dated october ..
while i was reading it, i felt guilt and emptiness
because ...
that blog used to emanate with love
and when i read it before, i have that painful doubt inside my heart
like it would come true
but dreams are the opposite of reality
i dont think i love him any more .. :((
i think it faded away already
or was it lesser love i felt now??
wen he touches me, hugs me, looks at me ..
i no longer melt ..
i no longer feel the tingly feeling running the length of my spine
i no longer feel the same way ..
despairingly true :((
i hope he dont see this :((
i hope i find my heart again :(
--ria
