I was watching Reborn when this phrase came up:
Which hell to choose.
And I thought to my self, right now, in my current state, which one would I choose? Being free but having to face the constant degrading words that the first devil say, or have my freedom, my happiness and everything I have ever known and lived for be taken away from me by the latter devil.
If I were a loowed to choose a third option, I wouldnot have chosen them both, I would have escaped.
But time is short, and I am not prepared for this escape, and even if I was, I couldn't, because it isn't the right time.
So, as the boss of my life, it is no longer a matter of when or how to survive when I escape. It is how long you endure, and which hell you could endure more. Sometimes, life is not just yes or no, but both situations calls for a NO, but you have to choose which one hurts less. In this case, I would be free to choose the FORMER.
However, the second demon is much too powerful, I lack the courage to resist yet.
For now the sea is calm, but once the storm cam in, I know I will be carried by the tides. I just hope, in the short time I am given before the storm comes in, I will be able to gather enough strength and current to SWIM AGAINST THE TIDES.
Either way, whatever I choose, it still is hell. :)
I never realized that the phrase Hell is other people has a bit of irony to it, because these people aren't really OTHERS.
